2003-07-03 - 1:46 p.m.
lori passed on tuesday.i dont know what to say . She was so strong, and fearless.I loved her so much. as I always have and always will. I hate what has happened. She overdosed on tuesday morning at her house.I love her.I want to make some of our past ideas a reality. and make her designs come alive.because lori deserves that much.
Why did this happen to us? I hope lori knows how many are suffering without her.So she understands how special and wonderful she was.That girl was an insperation to everyone.Lori i love you.everyone misses you.and will continue to miss you for many years to come.U will always be held in high respects in my heart and in my mind.
Everything that i make. I will make it with you in mind, I will think if u like it. and how i can make things to be beautiful for u.I love you.I feel like reality is being blurred w/o you.
I am suffering in almost a dream like state. I dont know. If i find myself laughing it feels fake anyhow. so temporary i cant even begin to explain how laughing feels wrong. but laughing doesnt feel as good as it used to anyhow so how could you say you are enjoying it as much w/o lori?food isnt as good. if somone one says its delicious. I look at them and almost want to tell them otherwise because. How can it be delicious. but food was only delicious when lori was here. the things that were once of intrest are falling away except for very concrete tthings.This is horrible.My tragety has spilled into my body my mind. and it changes everything around me. and poisons my normalities to become watered down.make them take a backseat to the tragic agent that is lori's departure.
I love you lori.I ilove you.i love yoou
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