2003-03-23 - 3:14 p.m.
Sometimes I want to crawl into a little place and die for a few hours.
so someone would miss me. for justa second.I miss joseph. but its weird.He can not replicate what i miss about him the most.He would have to maybe try.But that doesnt really happen Im not alone with him for more than hour somtimes mostly not even that.And while we're alone we fight or argue or cry about something lame Im his only shoulder.And he's my only helping hand however he cant really help while he cries.Its weird. I'm sad and happy at the same time.Hoping i see him later but i kknow that the most that'll happen is he'll come by and pick up food stay for a bit. maybe i'll go over for a nano-second and he'll sleep and i'll be board. we'll fight i come home pisst forgive him, then tommrow i'll see him we'll talk about it he'll drop me offf pissst. and so on and so forth. til' my birthday when he'll try to make everything not perfect ...PERFECT for one day for me. and it wont even work because everything's fuckd to hell.But, there is hope today wont be like every other day.
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